Shadow Asked: Am I Mentally Insane? (Possibly 80%)?

I'm only 15 but when I was in the first grade I started seeing angels. I thought I was going to die so of course I cried, but I've stopped seeing them. I only saw 9, but now I see a lot of other stuff. Every time I try to look up these things on the web I only think of it at night when my lights are off, and I feel like something is watching me, so I have to turn them on. I'm not scared but I don't feel safe.
I've noticed that I see things daily now, & not only that. I see, hear, and sense things, and I was hoping maybe I was just psychic, as I think I am. At least 5 times a day I start thinking of completely random things that have nothing to do with what I'm currently doing. I can easily draw my attention away from something, so do I just have an over active imagination? I suspect I may be 80% mentally insane, as I can still control my thoughts. But I'm not so sure. I see mutant rabbits, whenever my older sister brings her dog home with her and they leave, I see the dog even though it's not there. I see images in the corner of my eyes. But I'm not scared for some reason. I speak the queen's english(I'm not American or European) and at times I find myself talking as if someone is reading my mind, because someone is. I have subjected myself into complete apathy for most things… so…..
Sorry this was so long… Also I'm male if that helps.

Mary Asked: *Very Long* Anyone here with an estranged sibling? (If you have some time to listen & guide please)?

I have a sister who has little contact with me. We both were abused by our parents who later got help and medicated and somewhat recovered. My sister moved across the US and got her doctorate degree and is teaching. In the past 20 years, I rarely see her or talk to her. She called me up a few years ago and asked me what I'm going to do when our parents die that since I was still living with them it's my responsibility. I told her it's good to think of the future but she's a bit cold.

Our parents don't socialize much and their relatives don't have much to do with any of us. I only met them when i was in elementary school a few times.

My sister will call me once in a blue moon crying because of some boyfriend problem. She told me she knows its wrong to make whoever her current boyfriend into her world. She pretty much blows everyone else off unless she is broken up.

The rare times she visitied me she was kind of weird. When my boyfriend walked next to me and held my hand she walked in-between us and said she wasn't going to be a third wheel. Now, I don't try to be kissy in front of people but come on! I don't do that when the rare time she brings her bf around, in fact, I keep a distance because she is hyper sensitive and even a friendly hello to the guy she can think is flirting. This is what she fights her bf a lot about, a too friendly hello to the waitress can have her making a fit before all. So its not just me.

I've forgiven my parents and they've tried to be better to both of us, trying to support us both when we have any problem. They are kind of upset she talks when she's in the mood or what she'll do when she's not in the mood…she plays silent on the phone and will just sigh every few minutes when we ask why she isn't saying anything. When i told her I feel she has a problem and needs to talk to a doctor, she exploded crying and said she can't see a shrink and have it on her record while looking for a teaching job (or even having one).

I try to understand and not be upset but I'm human and I feel sad and angry by the situation. I remember even in middle and high school she would make fun of me with her friends. If she was listening to cool music I'd tell her I liked it and ask what it is and she would give me a fake name. I don't understand this type of behavior. It's kind of snotty for no reason. My parents will say I'm the warm-hearted one but sensitive. They call my sister, sorry to write but "****** one." I don't think that's nice but I understand where they're coming from.

It just seems she's being like the pattern of our family and cutting everyone off but her bf. She told me he complains she is too clingy and possessive of him but he does seem to love her. I tried telling her some of what i wrote here by email and text since she won't take my call and she just ignores me. But when Christmas or birthday comes she'll call and say a quick wish and some small chit-chat and then I'm a stranger to her and she has nothing to do with me.

Our mother had late onset psychosis and I tried to be there and get her help and visit her in the hospital. When my sister was there, her reaction was cold. She'd put a chair up to the door while she slept so my mom couldn't enter. My mom wasn't really bad at the time, she just says some off things about spirits. She's into channeling and psychic things. Then my sister cut her stay with them a week short and immediately jumped on a plane back to her bf across the US. My bf thinks she's just a selfish damaged person who doesn't really want to get better.

Two of our siblings committed suicide 10 and 20 years ago. We're in our 30s. I had a bad dream recently she did it too. That's when I called her and told her I felt the way she acts she needs to get help and she burst out crying which is very rare. I care about her but I feel so thrown away like garbage by her. My neighbors are more humane to me. What can I do? It hurts to see this and not know what to do? She seems sickened by any heart to heart conversation and closes up and has to go. I told her why repeat how our father doesn't talk to his two brothers or how our mother has no contact with her siblings except one. She gave no response. Sometimes i want to scream at her why is she choosing to be like this and such a stranger when we have so little family and other times I just feel she's mentally sick and needs help but she won't get it and I can't force it and I'm afraid one day she kills herself and I never get to really know her, my only sister. She has had many bouts of suicidal ideation since high school, usually due to boyfriend breakups.

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